Lessons from 2019

I cant believe its already another new year which means it’s a great time to look at the past and evaluate what has been working and what hasn’t  . I'll  start off by saying I’m probably not qualified to give any good advice but I feel like sharing my experience might help at least one person and that’s what matters most.

1.      No one is going to live your life for you

I read this quote saying something about how you should be a supporting role in your friends life and the star of your own. I think I have been putting to much emphasis on making sure my friends include me in everything they do i forgot to be my own person. I guess maybe FOMO might be relevant here. I have relied on them to make sure they are making plans and I am being invited to everything.  What I have learnt though is that its okay to do things on your own and meet new people and keep things for yourself. I have spent 10 years of dreaming of making videos on YouTube, but I was so scarred of what the people around me though i couldn't gather the courage to create anything. Back to another quote, but the people that matter wont care and the people that care don’t matter.

2.     Set goals for your self but don’t be so hard on yourself if you don’t accomplish them

I also set a goal to read 24 books in a year but I fell flat on my face and only read 9. I don’t know if its because I wasn’t interested in the books I was picking or the other things going on in my life but i wasn't interested in anything to do with books. I also made sure to tell everyone about my goal to which made me feel worse when i didn't follow through.That being said, I am proud of myself for reading more then I did last year so I need to count it as a win no matter what did or didn’t happen. The only person you need to be better then is who you were yesterday, and I feel like I accomplished that just a little bit.

3.     Letting go isn’t easy but sometimes it must be done

I also made one of the hardest decisions of my life this year and that may seem dramatic but it was hurting me to the core being this way. It’s a whole story for another video but the main point is that I needed to release something from my daily life because it was affecting me so negatively I was lying to my friends and to some extent depressed about it. I had tried so many times to get rid of it and it kept coming back like a bad nightmare every time. Still to this day I feel some regret about letting it go and wish I could have it back but I know time will heal all and even though its still an open wound it will make me a better person for what it taught me.

4.    Your true friends will be there for you at the end of the day

Through all the trouble I went through the last few years my friends have stuck by me. But what I have learnt more is that I need to stick by them to. Support and uplift them, try to help them understand the problems they have from an outside perspective. I can admit as well that I have totally fuck shit up at the same time I know I can fix it and rebuild the trust. It’s also important to be there for your friends even when they pull away or have new things in their life going on. Another quote, dang I’m on a roll, but this is a good one from Jordan woods” Someone somewhere is still discussing the old you because they don’t have access to the new you”

5.     Listen to the world around you- its trying to teach you something

Lately I have been listening to everything around me. I cant stop it. Its like there speaking to me in a sense, like i'm supposed to hear it so I can grow and be a better person in my own light. I am very self aware and I know when i'm being mean or unreasonable but I have always used an excuse that I can't control it. I feel like I have been lying to myself all this time. I know now that its complete BS that I was telling myself. You are responsible for your self so accept the lessons your given as a blessing to be a better person.

Hopefully you were able to take something away from this. Of course this isn't all i learnt in 2019 but its the stuff that effected me the most.  A new year or decade isn't a reason to set goals but no better time then the present to move yourself into the person you want to be. I cant wait to grow, learn and share more with you in 2020.